Departure to NEW Beginning

While watching Departure (Japanese movie), I make this note; 4.26 am.

I remember I made status note on facebook, stating:

"Nothing is last for forever, treasure every moment you have, cherish every time you get together, hold tight every thing you have NOW."

After watching the movie, it becomes clearer what it means to me.
Every human at one point will pass away and rest from all world things.
We're tired from all the problems, projects, tasks, and maybe life.
We want to sleep at peace and put everything behind.

Often we hear people say that death is beginning of a new journey.
It's not an end but a new starting point.
Like birth, death is also a turning point.
Death and life is like a piece of paper.
Side by side, face to face, both always walk together.

Isn't it funny?
When you die people will take care of you.
Other will decide the coffin, the burial place and ceremony, everything will be prepared for you.
When you die, you will not bring anything.
Just like you came to the world without bringing anything,
you will go back with the same way.
Do they spend hundreds or even thousands for the coffin?
Do they spend hundreds or even thousands for the burial?
Do they spend hundreds or even thousands for the grave?

Can you imagine when somebody leave you forever?
You can't touch, talk, hear, or even look him/her.
Let's say your mother, father, sister, brother, husband, or wife.
Until today, at this moment, I can't imagine I lose my special persons.
Even I know someday they will go and rest in peace.
I still need them all.

How about I leave them first?
Can they face it? Can I accept this fate?
Which one is the easiest choice, be the left one or be the person who leaves?
Can we choose? Do we know the answer?
Do we have any choice?

I think it'll be nice if I can be encoffineer.
I make sure my loved one grant eternal beauty.
I make sure my loved one get eternal rest peacefully.
I make sure my loved one give last memory to me.

Death is life.
Life is death.
When you live, live to the fullest.
Don't hold any regrets.
After you're tired, rest peacefully.
Your new beginning will start very soon after you wake up.

Let Go and Accept Back

Listening to Westlife's old songs, I make this note. 9.27pm.
Today and yesterday I screwed the time and my life.
Just doing nothing, sleeping, watching, laughing, listening to music.
Well, at least I did quite a lot different things in two days.
Not that bad.
But wait a minute, where is studying for exam?
Do I forget to mention it?
The answer is NO.

I didn't study for two days after having my last paper.
Well, my next exam is Monday and I have SU-ed it. It explained everything.
But I must study tomorrow for the subject, ADM330 (Contemporary Art South-East Asian).

Today I learned a lot from many things.
I want to share it to all of you who read my note.
First, after I read my friend's note about "Let Go", I realize something.
It's hard to let go, but we can do it even with tear in our eyes.
Somehow when I listened to Westlife on youtube, I remembered about Brian McFadden.
He is the former member of Westlife from 1998-2004 then he decided to focus on solo and his family.
I couldn't imagine how other members let him go from the band.
After almost six years together, having fun together, he had to leave the group.
I won't talk about his decision whether good or bad, but more on the letting go.
I watched the press conference on youtube, it was very emotional.

As I said before, it's hard to let go but we can let go.
Like friends, mark, exam, goods, even family, we need to learn to let them go.
Whether they go from our life or we leave them behind.
Life is not that simple and easy. Easy to say but hard to do.
My friend's note about this has struck me on my face.

But my question now, after I let them go why can I accept them back?
Feeling of betrayal, sad, left alone, hatred make us not be able to accept them back.
Even for family, we can accept them.

After leaving, looking down, and mocking it's hard to see them as before.
This world is so funny, why on the earth you come back to me after I let you go.
You don't feel happy with him/her and want to back in my arm.
After so much pains, tears, and shouts to ask you back nor you're yearning to come back.

Can't we accept them?
Aren't they worthy at all in our eyes?
Just because some mistakes, we cut all relationship.
Just because some arguments, we don't want to see his/her face.
Just because some misunderstandings, we blame everything to him/her.
Just because some problems, we close our eyes and our heart.

Love is painless.
Love is blind.
If you love him/her, not also you will let go but also you will accept them back.
It's hard, isn't it? It's just unconditional situation. It's a only for perfect world.
NO. It's real. It's true. It's for our normal world.

How about do we learn to not only letting go but also accepting back?
It's not only for person but also goods.
When we can do it, how beautiful things could be.
As perfect example Jesus has shown us to let go but more importantly to accept back.